*Disclaimer* This is a ranting blog
Do you realize, in the past 3 weeks I've come across 2 people who have published books since I left college?
Do you realize I've wanted to publish a book since I was 12?!
And that I've been working on a book for nearly 5 years now?!
To top it off, one now published author graduated college with me and is writing HISTORY books - which is exactly what I wanted to do when I graduated college, but instead I took an office job to support Mr. Curly and I while he went to seminary.
I'm just annoyed.
I know, I know. If I want to write, I should do it. I should stay up until the wee hours in the morning and live off of caffeine so I can stay awake during the day with my kids and yet still get to do what I've wanted to do for over 15 years now.
I know, I know. If I want to write, I should do more than blog. I should blog for a newspaper (I know 2 people who do that, one is not a published book author), I should write op-ed pieces, and spend days in historical research rooms at public libraries.
I know what I SHOULD do. I know what I WANT to do.
What I want to know is why when I do sit down to write, my motivation leaves.
What I want to know is why I've had a really great idea for five years and just can't get it done.
What I want to know is why I can come up with really good beginnings of novels that fall apart in the middle.
What I want to know if why every time I come up with a phenomenal historical event to write about, Mr. Curly moves me another remote scholarly barren area to live.
Writing is HARD. I know that. Which might be why it annoys me even more that I'm starting to see people my age, some also with children, doing what I've wanted to do since sixth grade.
As it is, I have to go now. So I can go shopping to buy things to decorate my church nursery. I suppose that is a form of art and creativity. But I sure wish I was writing.
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